crap, i dreamnt about him yesterday. was a good dream. i felt happy. like really, really, happy, i mean i can't even begin to describe how fucking happy i felt. sigh, it was only a dream. i woke up feeling lovely, then frustrated 'cos i'll never feel like that again. ever, at least not in this lifetime.

why did he appear in my dream? i haven't -really- thought about him in quite a while. now i'm on the internet googling his name. goddamn i'm pathetic.